Painful Disconnect

Sick feeling through back of torso and concentrated in stomach and pelvis; oozing tar, heavy, thick, sticky; uncomfortably warm, triggers hot flash; black; turning, pulsing, oozing as if by worms; turning flu symptoms.

I am truly alone even with you. Painful disconnect. You never really loved me. You just use me for gratification (conscious or otherwise). You have ulterior motives. Your expression of love is self-centered and manipulative.

Shifted to:
Powerful Connection
Explorer: Rebecca
State Group: Connection-Phobic

Other States in the Same Group (Reactive)

Armored

Full metal jacket; wrought iron cage, rustic black…

Resistance to Being Controlled

Blasting, exploding fire energy in my heart. Hot!…

Destruction Inside

Crackling energy, numb. Cold like a chill. One inc…

Irritation

Fuzzy, hot, red energy on my skin. Vibrates quickl…

Being Controlled

Like hard rubber, pushing down on head and shoulde…

Stuffing Feelings

Thick gas. Cool. Light gray. Inside Armored, in an…

Deeply Worthless

Sticky black tar. Filling my pelvic girdle, moving…

Needing to Be Rescued

Throat, upper lungs; solid; cool, like steel; stai…