Core Fear

A dense, concentrated gas, swirling viciously around its center which is nearly empty, like a vacuum. Ice cold. Small, maybe two inches diameter, spherical, but has the capacity to expand instantly and stop everything, freeze everything, paralyze everything. In my belly, hidden inside the ember of Cranky/Angry/Rage.

This is the horror of being alive, held in juxtaposition with the extreme impersonal nature of the universe. This is the vacuous cold and meaninglessness of the universe held within my own core, as the essential truth of existence.

Shifted to:
Catalyst
Explorer: Joe
State Group: My Small Self

Other States in the Same Group (Reactive)

Cranky/Angry/Rage

Like embers, carbon, ash, and fire, smoldering in…

Overwhelm

Like a churning, seething horde of giant, 4-inch-l…

Hopeless

Blackness, like an egg surrounding me and through…

Alone/Abandoned

A vacuum where a protective, warm, nurturing body…

Longing for Comfort

Moist, red, soft, fleshy solid, super-heightened s…

Hurt

Like galaxy stuff, torus shape, imploding on itsel…

Cringe

Soft solid, like putty/clay, porous, not real dens…

Bombardment

Massive, dense noise, as if made of sharp, hard bo…