Alone/Abandoned

A vacuum where a protective, warm, nurturing body is supposed to be. An empty, vacant space all around me, about a foot or two. No protection (from Bombardment). Cool/chilly. Color like an insipidly flat, non-blue, non-clouded sky, with a sense of darkness. Still and quiet. Expands and darkens to form a buffer between myself and Bombardment, or between me and anyone who might abandon me.

Others don’t see; they’re unconscious, etc. Feeds into Angry. I want no enmeshment, no responsibility, no impingement of another’s needs on my own.

Shifted to:
Go Deep
Explorer: Joe
State Group: My Small Self

Other States in the Same Group (Reactive)

Cranky/Angry/Rage

Like embers, carbon, ash, and fire, smoldering in…

Overwhelm

Like a churning, seething horde of giant, 4-inch-l…

Hopeless

Blackness, like an egg surrounding me and through…

Longing for Comfort

Moist, red, soft, fleshy solid, super-heightened s…

Hurt

Like galaxy stuff, torus shape, imploding on itsel…

Core Fear

A dense, concentrated gas, swirling viciously arou…

Cringe

Soft solid, like putty/clay, porous, not real dens…

Bombardment

Massive, dense noise, as if made of sharp, hard bo…